leave me paralyzed

It was raining cats and dogs today. so unpredictable at this time of year.
The rain woke me up at 4:20 along with my cat,that just wouldn't let me sleep.
I bet you can't really see through this pictures,but the feeling was absolutely wonderful. walking in the rain with a Bordeaux umbrella and smell the fresh air, so uncontaminated. when It's cold outside it actually warms my heart.
I forgot to mention that since I live in Israel, I serve the country,in other words, I'm a soldier. it is as bad as it sounds and yes, girls do serve in the army here, and not by a choice, if we didn't have to do that, we wouldn't. (when I say that we have to, it means that if we'll disagree, we'll go to prison).
I speak only for myself,since I don't even feel belong here and most of the time I despise it,though the big patriots must enjoy it, in some way.
I guess that the biggest question mark is why am I doing it? Thing is, that one can't explain this country's system in an innocent blog,I'm just paying my last debt to this place and then I'll be free as a bird. a happy bird. In the meantime I learn the German language, since I'm willing to study in Germany. I find languages so fascinating and intriguing, I absolutely adore it. I speak Russian,Hebrew,English,Spanish and..a little bit of Deutsch! I was about to say that since I serve in the army, I wear a uniform everyday, so it cuts off my wings in the fashion aspect, I can only dress as I please on my free time,vacations, weekends etc. but lets face it, when I come back home, the only thing I really want is to slip inside my pyjamas.
what I would have worn for such a lovely day as today would probably be this

Not so long ago I bought a sort of almost flat version of Bordeaux oxford shoes,which are amazingly pretty. I have a thing for this color lately. too bad I can't find an oxford's like those in the picture, I think they are utterly lovely. I suppose that when I'll have my spare time, I could share some real clothing, on a real face and not just a dreamy outfit. perhaps on Wednesday or Thursday, this German artist is comming to Tel Aviv and since I study German in the Goethe Institut it means that I have a free entrance. maybe this will be a good chance to dress up, or I could simply wait for my best friend to return from Poland and have a girls-night-out.
for now, I'm going to check the forecast,cut my fringe and do some German homework!
Have a nice evening/night.

my hometown,Minsk,covered in white

with tired eyes,tired minds,tired souls we slept..

all of this is still very new to me,since i usually was barley blogging, and when i did,it was at the local community website and not in such a global way as this.

though I'm quiet sure that I'm the only one here.

I'm Elizabeth, or Elizaveta (which is the russian version of my name), or simpley Liis.

I was born in Minsk,Belarus (eastern Europe), but my parents decided to move to Israel. probably the biggest mistake they could have done.

Basiclly because I love Europe more than anything else in my life and I'm eager to move back to where I belog. It's aweful really to feel like a tree with no roots, or like a body with no soul. this is how I feel about where I am at the moment.

I would like to pack this little corner with thoughts, memories and notings which i just usually shove to the back of my head, which is already stuffed with too many dreams,goals and aches.

(this picture was taken by my dad in st.petersburg,Russia,probably my biggest love)

good night to all,wish me luck